My Heart Feels Too Small

I still can't believe that I am pregnant. This has been a completely different experience than it was when I was pregnant with Ty. Sometimes I forget that I have a little baby in me! I know that sounds awful, but it's true. It's just so different this time around. I have a baby that I can hold, kiss, play with and take care of, he keeps me busy and takes my mind off of things which is really nice when I am feeling sick. I have finally gotten used to being a mom to Ty and I LOVE it. No one can prepare you for how much you love your baby, and how that love grows. Ty is my ray of sunshine, he is the sweetest little thing in my life. He makes me laugh every single day. My favorite days are when I am home all day and its just me and my little man. I can't even explain how much I love him, I feel like my heart could burst! I know this sounds so cliche but it just feels too overwhelming to somehow make room in my tiny heart for another baby. I know its been done before, but the anticipation is seriously killing me! I have been an emotional wreck today! Poor Dan. It's times like this where I think I am glad I am a girl because I would not want to have to deal with one! I know everything will be okay, somehow I will be capable of loving another one just like I love Ty but I am in the moment and just wanna cry!